December 2009
28 posts
Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010
Sort of resolutions:
stop biting my nails. silly nervous habit.
don’t allow people to get me worked up so easily.
continue writing at a steady pace.
compile a small book of my poetry.
have less side notes after saying something i feel, i don’t need to defend what i honestly feel.
“What about you? Are you the happiest and the saddest right now that you’ve ever been?” “Of course I am.” “Why?” “Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.”
-Nicole Krauss
C: When you have everything, you have never felt so close to nothing.
i find it funny how i loved you before i could even hold you, before i could even look in your eyes, before you ever set foot on my back porch.
Watch
“A Young Couple”
This kills me for a variety of reasons.
i hate when you start on the wrong foot with someone you’ve never even really met before. it’s just kinda silly.
i feel like lately i haven’t really been able to say much. but i have a lot to say sometimes. some days i feel like an under-study.
It’s been four. I’m glad it’s been four.
C: ...and then this guy cut me off.
T: I feel like people have this theory of: “The quicker I drive, the quicker I get home, the quicker my life will improve.” No, that’s not how it works.
C: (laughs)
T: If that actually worked, I'd be in my car right now.
“But I don’t listen to that kind of talk. Thoughts like that have a way of sinking into your feet.”
—Carl Lewis
Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.
—Josephine Hart
sometimes i feel i’m this scared little girl, who will sometimes run and hide, who claims to be so strong and stand so tall, and does most of the time. but next to you, i don’t have to hide, there’s not a single thing about me i have to hold back; i love that. i love the feeling and the ways and the words and all of it.
“I’m all in favor of keeping dangerous weapons out of the hands of fools. Let’s...”
– Solomon Short
cold nose; I want my warmth. I find it hard to forgive baleful behavior, i just don’t have it in me. maybe that’s a flaw. or maybe that’s just me standing tall. i think it’s the second one. (your ego wrote too many checks that your body can’t cash.)
Us-Regina Spektor
“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.” —Anais Nin
A: it is the greatest of feelings put into one.
B: of all feelings? the greatest part of every type of emotion?
A: the positive feelings!
B: so none of the negative?
A: nope
B: so it doesn't have the most beautiful part of sorrow?
A: what?
i like that we share little spoon. my chest is warm against your back.
some people need to go find a backbone and grow the hell up.
A: it’s different.
B: different you say?
A: yeah.
B: how so?
A: I don’t know how to say it.
B: but what? how?
A: you’ll just feel it when you feel it.
B: but you do?
A: yeah.
