November 2010
57 posts
“We laughed and laughed, together and separately, out loud and silently, we were determined to ignore whatever needed to be ignored, to build a new world from nothing if nothing in our world could be salvaged, it was one of the best days of my life, a day during which I lived my life and didn’t think about my life at all.”
—Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
It’s like a venn diagram. The middle part. And now there is just this feeling of loss that only you hold onto.
“You can’t spell Tracy without racy!”
– Tom Wright
You’ll feel it in your bones.
“She was gone, and all that was left was the space where you’d grown around her, like a tree that grows around a fence.” -Nicole Krauss, (The History of Love)
I was spring. I brought new light and held you tight. You were autumn. When winter approached you stayed back. I watched your figure get smaller and smaller.
Within Dreams by The Album Leaf
Just so you know, today I am thankful for all that you are.
“Don’t ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
-Howard Thurman
Clear throat; Lips tremble, fingertips freeze; he held his hand up to his chest. And darling- words spewing back and forth, the rush of sadness crept in quietly. And darling- She felt the weight of his eyes. They stung her harsher than usual. And darling- they counted the silences, because sometimes they meant more than the noise. And darling- his chaos and her chaos, his order and her order. They...
Today I want to crawl out of my body and hide in a shell like a hermit crab.
Lady in Spain by Ingrid Michaelson
E: I took Becca to New Haven to make her feel better, where would you like to go?
T: The moon?
E: Okay. I hear it's cold up there.
This morning I woke up at sunrise and couldn’t fall back asleep. I just sat there watching as the sun peeked over the trees and the moon went into hiding.
“…even when its hard, and i know it is, let your lamps shine.”
– C.N.
I fear that one day you’ll turn around to smile at me and I’ll be long gone.
Weary heads will usually have weary hearts. I think that’s rather sad. They don’t even have 1 out of 2. At least having your heart feel everything would pump the blood through your veins.
My head has been moving so much faster than my body lately.
You were curled up with your knees close to your elbows, eyes shut, lips soft, skin bare. My car keys were tucked into my coat pocket. I had the hardest time walking away from your sleepy eyes and sleepy limbs this morning.
One of my biggest fears is walking up my back porch stairs and to my door at night time and running into Opossum.
This is my Grandpa. →
She walked into the room with a sort of walk that no one else could mimic. A few people noticed her entrance into the room, looked up, then quickly merged back into their conversations. But he watched her enter. And he watched her walk through the center of the room and make her way over to the red chair in the corner. He always felt that there were certain girls, that when they walked, you could...
Newest Pet Peeve:
Someone telling you to “stop getting defensive”. Well, clearly one gets defensive when you are OFFENDING them in some day. So suck it up and deal with their defense mechanisms like a man.
My heart knew what was going on weeks before my head would ever admit to it.
In my 21 years of life I have learned a few things: - Never wear a leotard to a party. It’s difficult to pee when in a leotard and drunk. - If you need a safety word with your friends for a place you’re going, you guys probably shouldn’t go there. - Dark chocolate and red wine solve most problems. - Pretty is as Pretty does. - Life is only what you make it to be ...
Just because someone speaks a lot and has a lot to say doesn’t mean they know much of anything or are really saying anything at all. I think peoples’ silences say so much more than their voices.
I’ve never had someone make me feel like my insides were burning as much as my outsides.
Not until you.
Sleep by Azure Ray
I talked about walking cats outside on leashes and you humored me. You are the best.
1.) I loved the way you love your first car. The way you love your first roller coaster ride. There will be others. Better ones. 2.) I loved the way you love magic. You know it’s fake but there’s something exciting about it. You love it knowing it isn’t real. 3.) I loved the way someone loves the idea of love. That’s all it was. The idea of wanting it to be the real thing....
DREAM #3:
We were surrounded by friends. Everyone a couple. They were all so in love. I looked at you, I knew we were in love too. Then out of nowhere I told you I wanted to die. Then I woke up.
Vous êtes mon seul.
howverywinona:
Honestly, there is really nothing wrong with being happy.
Happy is so under-appreciated because everyone is too in love with the idea of being sad.
It’s not black vs. white, it’s not easy. But it’s okay.
Sometimes, I feel people fall into sadness because it is familiar. And people have a tendency to be drawn to things that feel familiar. So they can sometimes allow themselves...
It feels so good to do fouette turns on a stage again.
“It is interesting what we find scary and what we find beautiful. It’s very...”
– Karin Dreijer-Andersson
DREAM #2:
I was walking with this little girl. I asked her what her name was and she just started crying, so I told her I’d call her Poppy. A van came flying down the street and two men stepped out of it and threw Poppy in the back of the van. I ran after the van but couldn’t compare to the speed. I walked towards a field somehow knowing that they’d be there, and they were. I hid in the...
DREAM #1:
I was on Montclair’s campus. You and I were at a party in a large room. The lights suddenly went off and when they came back on everyone said you had gotten hurt and went to the hospital. There was a very mini hospital on campus and I ran to it. I stood in the lobby for forever trying to hear any news of what happened to you and how you were. Then my front bottom teeth started to fall...
I understand floating around, just please don’t flip onto your stomach and drown.
This week I had head shots taken for the show that I’m in this December. The photographer was so much better than the one I had last year. He was older and really witty and it was nice to throw our witty humor back and forth at one another, since not many people take my humor kindly anymore. I stood there. I wore black which I know is weird because usually some splash of color looks good for...
